Inspired but ................................................

should coulda woulda...damn it..y does it always happen?

i didn't dare
i had
i didn't capitalize
i didn't stand out, stand up
i didn't lead

still feel like crap. i could have done all the things mentioned above...but i didn't. I left it hanging, i left it incomplete. I could have completed and made a blast, but i didn't convert the chance.

had a bullet shot through my head, thru my heart. is it juz me playing mind games on my own? wat he said made sense la really...why didn't i? qn keeps ringing within me. im suppose to harness people's energy BUT! well...buts buts and more buts, coulda shoulda woulda, why didn't i? why didn't i? it's too late la su.

My confidence went rock bottom, and it's still rock bottom rite now. din even haf the courage to look at the j2s to intro the campaignees on the ramp. i owe it to em.

gotta ask myself, do they really care at all? are they even bothered at all? time and time again, this society fails to fully serve. 6 years...and still haven't reach the mark. sooo many opportunities and we missed.

i know i should juz live and learn la, but it's hard knowing that you could've done something but u didn't. It's right under my bloody nose and i simply didn't do anitink because why? i didn't dare...i was too afraid...damn me!

in less than a month, i will move on to a new chapter in life. A chapter with one less commitment. but can't help feeling guilty la. I hope succ can learn from wat i didn't do. I hope succ will start doing what i didn't do. I hope they will be the one who will remove the stigma against this society and for once, really gather genuine support from the majority.

man, someone please guide and enlighten me. I juz feel like turning back time and correct the wrong. aah wells, according to Einstein, it's not possible to time travel at all...damn! time to move on su, recover fast and move on. Like wat a perfect acquaintance said , "Live and Learn"...yeah..live and learn..........