bWhat a day!!!!

this is the 2nd insult im getting from you bitch!!

"take the menu so that you wun look stupid again" fuck you man!! here i am trying veri hard and all u do is put me down....you think that helps? you think it helps walking around with onli a fraction of the enthusiasm and confidence left? you haf no idea bitch....the clock is ticking and i hope it ticks ticks ticks man...for when you're nt arnd....my confidence will be up...

well i guess life's like dat eh? working with bitches somewhat restores the balance in life. there's always a more tactful and better way to point out stuff man...i dun mind being scolded, but insulted...hey hey....you've crossed the line man....

mayb one day, juz one day....some1 will pt out that you're not that smart aftall for some reason..and mayb...juz mayb...you'll stop your insults...

it sucks being the tactful one, trying to be diplomatic and stuff while others whisk by, stepping on your head. i guess 'nice guys do finish last'...sadly...

i reali dun like to rant...dun realli like to be negative...but i've been holding this thought for quite a while now...juz tot it wasnt appropriate to blog abt it...but hey...aft what happened....who cares man...i rather let the world read about my thoughts than implode with it...my life's too valuable to implode on such sick comments.

ah well, i've got another 3 months with that *itch (hopefully less)....let's hope i'll be able to keep her mouth shut from nxt mth on....im prolly not gonna speak much to her.....mayb it's not profesional of me...but hey insult isn't professional either yea? so yea...eff man!!

aight peeps...you take care yea...and yes...here's an early Merry Xmas....may all of you be jolly..=D

wahey ppl...xmas is coming and im kinda excited, aren't you?

ahah, sorri havent been blogging at all recently, been kinda lazy...ahahah...and now, i've got this poky feeling in my stomach...dang!! rather uncomfortable...still wanna eat my supper later man...hehee...weee...

aiyah...nutin much to blog la basically...juz filling out the space basically...

"you think give for free ah?!" - anonymous

"you're the cashiere and he's useless!" - anonymous

grrr.....life...

oh gosh, i seriously think my blog's getting boring...mayb i shud scrape it? should i?

nah dun tink so...juz some random tots for the moment...

wahey hey hey hey hey!! man saturday was a pretty good day. was kinda happy like bird liddat.

anyway, tot it was gonna be bad..but hey....different kinda work with wee bit of extra tips...nyehehhe....financial rewards made my day man...

but that still doesn't chg my fear of going to work every day...into that pressure cooker everyday where evrybody expects you to perform and not make a single minor mistake. darn!

i've lived life w the big picture in mind , not realli bothering about the details that exist. well now, i'm suffering bcoz of the "big picture" decision that i made while growing up becoz it seems to me that details = the big picture. (i still dun tink so sumtimes) but hey ppl can get realli petty.

it's like, evry detail missed is like the end of the world la, forget to clear spoon oso kana screwed, forget a bit of this, kena whack also...haiyoh....i've become fearful liao. confidence slightly lower than usual....

but hey, when you're under a tough management, you learn more and yeah, boy did i learn more. i learned to open my eyes and ear even more to my surroundings and the freaking details. and there's a whole stuff that i learnt here that is valuable. but i still do fear going to work everyday...like i said, it's a pressure cooker, veri intimidating...but hey, im sincere abt my job and im all out to provide good service, so yea, i guess a lil bit of scolding wun hurt me...it's like ego investment for my future...heheh...

but this week, i've been quite deprived of my frens la...yes yes..it's onli been one week, kinda feel the impact of loneliness...had to keep calling Dasen during my 3 hr aftnn break from 3-6...and keep smsing my sis and all. hehehe...thank god Jing came over for a visit during one of my breaks. and weirdly, she bought chocs, hmmm... but hey, thanks dudiez!!

well, will be resting for 2 days, b4 i enter the cooker again...at this rate, dun think i'll b able to blog abt prom ba...nyehehhe....

but hey, tho it's a cooker, FnB line is cool for me man. it's harsh now, but when i get the hang of it, i guess i'll get the hang of life too yea? PR and stuff...so yea, it's good time investment. sumtimes, work isn't onli for money yea? we all shud work to earn and learn...and nt juz to earn.

and those who says being a waiter/server is a menial job...try it out man...becoz not every1 is cut to be in the service industry...bleah!!

alrite ppeeps...take care yea? muacks!

oh gosh..i juz blog on this new beta blog thingy...and it didn't come out!!! grr....

anywayz, been a rather gruelling week for me....it's liek a pressure cooker week....always under scrutiny....

confidence kinda low than usual now. looks like i gotta inflate it a bit and thicken my skin by a lot...cause it's very daunting whenever i step into work...*gulp*

it's not rocket science, but hey seriously, i'd prefer to do rocket science man...

to all adorables, i'll try to make time for all of you la, for now, i can't risk taking leave, cos i gotta show that im learning as much as possible...=D

Labels: Gruelling

wahey ppl...gonna blog in parts today...heheh...cos interesting things happened in my life these 2 days...

i wouldn't haf imagined myself...hip/hop....R/B....loud music....dancefloor.....pissing ppl off on dancefloor...wooyeah...and now im addicted...it's neither drug nor vice...it's juz great!

and it's not onli me man! frens are addicted too! ahha...juz today...went out w Dasen. we were like walking around marina square...and there was like music at every shop ah...and dammit...our body started to twitch!! argh!! ya la..call me a virgin la...but hey, every1 got their first time rite? heheheh...

not onli tt la...was suppose to find this shop called "Liang Seng Sports". Apparently we passed it quite a bit of times. it was opposite this shop called "Beary Hip". and tt crappo Dasen was like, "hey, is pun intended? beary hip...hey...you're beary hip man...beary hip..." wadeva la dasen!!

and yeah...we were so distracted by tt that we actualli failed to notice that freaking Liang Seng was opposite that toopid "beary hip" shop....dammit! and we spent 20 freaking mins walking around that same level...passing Creative and Action City like 6 times...heheheh

But hey Dasen, they were rounds worth making rite? i call them the memory round...nyeheheh!!!

damn dumb la...ahhaha

blog abt prom and after-prom coming up! foooyeah..hot hot hot!!