wow. the past few days have been truly amazing. best best days ever. the past few days were one of those rare days where the source of my energy came truly from love. it's been a while since i felt that way, and it's been a while since i opened up. feels really good.

for me, the past few days actualli forced me to realli realli realli put others above self. my life has made me desensitized to pain. what i've gone through many many years back have resulted me in losing the ability to feel pain. the pain that i went thru many years ago, to me, will be the worst ever in my life. nothing else in life, no obstacles can ever match up to that huge blow 12 years ago.

since 12 years ago, every single day made me stronger, more independent but also colder. and now, i've reached a point in my life where it is very difficult for me to emphatize with people, be it frens or acquaintances, with trivial obstacles or issues.

so u put me in a position as in the past 3 days, seriously forced me to reach into my softer side and understand, that everybody has different needs and I seriously need to start understanding and respect that fact. cos im always pushing myself. driven by results and prospects, i'll do whatever it takes to reach my own goals, sometimes abandoning all forms of emotions altogether.

i hate to admit it but i guess my own life isn't all abt me. my life is all about people around me too. im very glad that the past 3 days happened. and im also very glad to have met very strong and supportive people who are willing to challenge themselves out of their comfort zone, challenge themselves with mere acquaintances. im full of admiration for them, admire them even more than i admire myself. on a lighter note, they're damn funni, adorable and loveable la.

all in all, power experience. anchored.